Dealing with Defeat

It’s 12:48 on Friday, October 3rd. I turn 26 in 5 days. My life has been anything but “normal” even though that word has no value anymore anyway.

Last night I went to the Wadsworth Art Gallery in Hartford, CT for their Clue night. Such a lovely evening, and so very mysterious and intriguing. So yes, I’m in a mood a bit, and maybe we cracked that final layer. The layer stopping me.

Something happened after my miraculous NDE, a cheerleading stunt turned into a come to Jesus moment, ending in a diagnosis of fractured C1/C2/Skull and 2mm from complete ykw… click here for my public testimony

GETTING THE THE POINT OF THE POST

While in sync with the spirit, I had written down something and wanted to share :)

Journal entry on October 3rd, 2025

It says,

I’ve overcome a lot this far, one day there will be a time to tell it all; but for now there’s one last card to draw. Running from something, avoiding, preventing, preparing for and accepting defeat. Why are we to run from what we are being dealt? For if I hold the king, you can only hold the queen. Think about what lays between. The hope to accept no defeat- as it defeats oneself and ends in utter deception and disappointment.

Refuse the forfeit, stand the fight. Take the light.

You will succeed,

You will win,

Amen 🫶🏻

That’s all for now, have a wonderful rest of your day. God be with you 🫶🏻